The attraction of destructive thoughts
And then there was pitch black darkness,
The only lights breaking the thick fog were tiny pink dots far in the distance marking the end of a long fishing rod bending down by the force of the wind, additionally some pink dots were circling above marking a strange flat shaped plane that seemed to circle the area.
Somehow the contrasting strong power-fullness of this dark sea made me painfully aware of my own powerlessness. The strong pitch black sea having the same color as the clouds seemed to start all the way up there, rolling onto the gray sandy beach like a storm. Looking down closer at the sea I can see how she strongly pulls back parts of the beach first left than right as a strong mother using her paws to pull back her playing kittens one after the other. Watching these movements I can feel the strong undercurrent pulling me back, its destructiveness showing some kind of strange power of attraction. As soon as she pulls back you want to take a step closer..
Questions start to enter my mind:
“Why do these destructive powers feel so attractive? and how do these powers stay so strong in pulling us back even after we learned the hard way?”
“Is it that we feel the need to measure-up all the time, measure our strength now and a then, needing to feel we can still handle it, handle it better or handle it at all? Or could it be that we miss it in some kind of masochistic way?”
Then all the melancholy is melted by the Thermos, turning the powder in warm wonderful welcoming wienermelange.. enough measuring of our strenght for one day,
Time to go home and love 😀 !!
19 February 2017 @ 04:02
Yes I do agree confronting yourself with destructiveness, making you aware of your powerlessness can teach you a lot. But as you confront yourself you should be alert at all times because that it is also very dangerous, dangerously attractive.
It is true what you are saying, indeed it is not wise to take act after categorizing this act as destructive, but unfortunately it is not that easy.
In situations were we put ourselves to close to destructiveness our veto of conscious free will is not strong enough to bare the temptation of the powerfull attraction of destructiveness. Therefor the only free will of veto is not to place yourself in that situation if you know you can not handle it.
Still some people do repeat confrontation eventhough they know they could not handle it last time, as they hope they can beat it this time..
Which will not race their survivalrate, but will rate their attractivness through their braveness in confronting stuff which will race their reproductionlevel which will even out with the downfall of the survival 😀
19 February 2017 @ 02:58
I think its worth it because being aware of our powerlessness not only can teach us about the inner self, but also about how connected things in the Universe are.
Regarding destructive actions, I’d say that wouldn’t be wise to categorize an action as destructive and still do it. We cannot handle to create threats, they just come and once we listen to them, we can get some learning.
19 February 2017 @ 02:41
Ok, if I understand you correctly:
You think confronting destructiveness could be attractive because it makes you aware of your powerlessness, which makes you more aware of the thread-level. Being aware of the threat-level is beneficial for survival, true..
Hmm^ But don’t you agree as the level of threat rises because of your destructive actions.. I mean there might not have been a thread at all without you confronting your destructiveness. If you don’t walk into the sea the undercurrent can not pull you back..
Or do you believe it is worth it, because the risk of potential thread not knowing your level of power without confronting destructiveness periodically is too high, and therefor testing it on a regular basis is neccesary?
19 February 2017 @ 02:28
No, what I meant was that It can be attractive because of its destructiveness.
then it would be: destructiveness + our powerlessness = threat
Threats -> survival -> surveillance
19 February 2017 @ 02:01
Hmm, interesting thoughts Matheus, I don’t think I completely understand what you mean. I assumed you meant “surveillance” as a contrast to measuring strength as giving attention without judgement? But why would that be be beneficial for our survival?
19 February 2017 @ 01:54
Nor measuring the need of our strength up or masochistic feelings dear Hagar,
for me it has to do with surveillance. What connects with something really important among us, animals: survival.
Thanks Thermos! 😉